2 posts tagged “chicago”
i love to hate hating to love full moons. i've been noticing the mystic feeling they bring during the past few cycles. if you recall, last full moon i ouijaed alone and it asked me if i was mom. i guess i should ouija after this post.
so i've been freaking out trying to decide where to go next. today, i got a few signs or something, i don't know. i'm reading into everything too much.
this morning started out awful - car problems. but then a phone call at lunch from an organization that i had applied to for a job months ago, offering an interview for an unpaid internship. in new york city.
all last week i was convinced i was moving to seattle. i've never had nyc on my map. now things are looking up.
after an incredibly pleasant workout and a beautifully gusty walk down the railroad place path, beltin' out patsy cline and harry nilsson, i had a txt conversation with a favorite friend. this led to a phone call forbidding a move to nyc and encouraging following through with our secret plan.
oh. and before my workout, when i was changing in the locker room, nbc nightly news was on. and on nbc nightly news was a glowing example of fear-mongering corporate media: leeching off the tragedy in china, the newslady's voice warned that seattle is in great danger of a great quake.
i took that as a sign.
also the chapter i read tonight in the shadows book was really eye-opening and relatable.
also my mother is an angel for letting me borrow her fly-ass whip to get to work on time today.
eight days left. not that i'm counting.
if anything good happens, i'll report back from the ouija.
i think i have one person that reads this thing. i think its nick. nick nack patty whack. i've never called him that. maybe its the wine talking. we all know what happens when the wine talks ...
anyway, i think i'm gonna play part-time momma this summer. adam and i had a lot of phone conversation-time tonight that makes me want to just take a big huge jump and move to chicago without any plans whatsoever of anything: no living situation, no job situation, NO NOTHIN.'
the only chicago synchronicity that happened today was getting a letter from the organization where i applied for a job as a teacher's assistant saying that other people were more qualified than i am. it was the nicest way i've ever been rejected by a job i've applied to. every other job that has rejected me has just not answered me at all. just totally disregarded that i spent time typing a cover letter and cleaning up my resume and dreaming about working. but this place cared enough to have their executive director sign a letter turning me down. i have to respect that.
but do i take that as a sign to not go to chicago? or as a sign that chicago will treat me tenderly?
i also just had really good talks with this dude jacob about God and Mind and synchronicity and i wish it hadn't ended. he's wise. but now i'm gonna put on some nilsson and talk to whomever the ouija brings me.
