3 posts tagged “shadow”

big synchronicity of the (yester)day: oprah book club.

i had coffee with the woman for whom i babysit yesterday and then we went to Borders. we were in the christian book section and discussing spirituality books in general and as we walked through the store, on one of the tables we saw a book by eckhart tolle. she asked if i'd ever read anything by him but i haven't.

blah blah blah, the day wears on, and later i'm in our living room watching tv, surfing the nets and talking with roommate and her boyfriend. somehow (i can't remember why) the oprah book club comes up in conversation. i say 'well, at least people are reading.'

blah blah blah, now it's party time and i'm having a drink with a friend. we're talking books. i tell her of the shadow book i'm reading that is totally awesome and everyone should read, and she says she's reading a book about the ego. she's reading 'a new earth' by eckart tolle. she learned about it on oprah. oprah has an online discussion group for the book.

now i don't want anyone to look down their nose at my friend. she's a smart young lady and i admire her, even if she does endorse oprah and her book choices.

she isn't down with tolle, though. she says he's kind of hard to understand and what she's gotten from the book thusfar is that we should 'fight the urge to think.' she think the book encourages lack of opinion and lack of criticism and lack of contemplation.

the moral of this post is that oprah book club can be synchronous, too.

also, barack obama sealed the deal last night. remember when oprah endorsed him? mmm ... smell the synchronicity. i love it.

i love to hate hating to love full moons. i've been noticing the mystic feeling they bring during the past few cycles. if you recall, last full moon i ouijaed alone and it asked me if i was mom. i guess i should ouija after this post.

so i've been freaking out trying to decide where to go next. today, i got a few signs or something, i don't know. i'm reading into everything too much.

this morning started out awful - car problems. but then a phone call at lunch from an organization that i had applied to for a job months ago, offering an interview for an unpaid internship. in new york city.

all last week i was convinced i was moving to seattle. i've never had nyc on my map. now things are looking up.

after an incredibly pleasant workout and a beautifully gusty walk down the railroad place path, beltin' out patsy cline and harry nilsson, i had a txt conversation with a favorite friend. this led to a phone call forbidding a move to nyc and encouraging following through with our secret plan.

oh. and before my workout, when i was changing in the locker room, nbc nightly news was on. and on nbc nightly news was a glowing example of fear-mongering corporate media: leeching off the tragedy in china, the newslady's voice warned that seattle is in great danger of a great quake.

i took that as a sign.

also the chapter i read tonight in the shadows book was really eye-opening and relatable.

also my mother is an angel for letting me borrow her fly-ass whip to get to work on time today.

eight days left. not that i'm counting.

if anything good happens, i'll report back from the ouija.

i've been reading up on shadows and shadow work and getting in touch with my shadow in waking life and in dreams.

but what i'm wondering is what do i do if i know the darker side of my Self and i accept it? what if i'm perfectly okay with being a flake (the most recent character flaw that's been brought up to me by a friend)? what if i don't mind the fact that i'm totally selfish with my time, even at the expense of spending time with family and friends? what then?

also i had a really vivid dream last night about house sitting for my post-star boss and accidentally letting her pets die. this was all a representation of my guilt for leaving the job so soon, of course. but i have fully accepted that guilt, since before giving my notice. so what of the dream?

i guess i'm missing something and i'm hoping some synchronicity will intervene and show me what i'm failing to see.

on a much happier note, i made a friend with a coworker i'd never met til today. he's great. i'm looking forward to summer. it starts in two weeks.